First time self-publishing nerves

I have been writing stories since I was nine years old. Ideas for stories pop into my head at various random moments. As a mom of 3, often my story ideas start with a comment or question from one of my children. I have ideas written on scrap pieces of paper, post-it notes, or notes in my phone. More recently, I have tried to be more disciplined and carry a small journal with me.

For those connected onto this website and blog from my Instagram or TikTok account, you know a bit of my story. I have been a counsellor for over two decades. A little under 2 years ago I was in a car accident that has left me suffering with pain and cognitive difficulties. I am fighting to get my health back and to get my life back. As such, computer work and sitting unassisted is a challenge for me and this first blog is being typed as I dictate. Where there is a will there is a way!

Just before my accident I was preparing to self-publish my first children’s book. The car accident derailed this dream for almost 2 years. But with the help of my family, I am hoping to cross the finish line and see it published in November. It has been written, illustrated and waiting for me.

Nerves are bubbling up. Will people like it? Will it be well received? Will I become an author, which I have always dreamed about? The worst part for me right now, is having to rely on others for help because of my accident injuries and concussion. I doubt my brains ability to edit properly and to pick up on things that I need to ask others to do for me. But I have to try. One thing I’ve learned from the aftermath if my car accident, is that all I can do is keep trying. Trying to get my health back. Trying to get my life back. And to realize and accept that I might have to work towards my dreams in different ways. I need to be ok to ask for help. To accept my limitations even as I try to breakthrough and recover.

So I’ve asked family to help me get my first book over the finish line. To help me with websites and computer work. To take on some tasks as I rest. I am also realizing that I will not reach perfection for my first book or any book. But I feel proud of the work I did to write it years ago, and I feel proud to be trying to get it it there, despite the barriers I face.

The day I publish will be the day I can say out loud that I AM AN AUTHOR! I hope you follow me on my journey and that you feel inspired to keep fighting for your own dreams.